Monday, December 28, 2009
Take it as an experience
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Forgive each other will get being life
From tis lesson, I know tat , for children no need to attend too much course bcoz it will be their stress increase day by day when they going to grow up..study and sport enough.lau beng and xin bei ..ya they are role model of lover and gud parents for their daughter …nowadays, I dun know y the wife must stay in house . it seems like in prison, like a maid, like a pet.why not they both earn money together and children let their grandmum to tc and they can work n pay some money for their grandmum. 1st , they can earn more income and they can retired early. Prepare money for their children to futher education oversea. And after retired can go travel together..y not ? my planning was not wrong ..that I want to do..
Friday, November 20, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
break up day of 4th
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Sorry, i love u..
Are u still remember our first meet? U are quite shy but it jz a moment , when in the taxi u hold my hand kiss my hand. U didnt regret that u had chosen me although i'm fat. U never complain tat u ar ugly . in pizza hut, we spoon feed each other ..the ppl around us they us peamerable. they are not alive? i said i'm thirsty, u didnt care how much the price of the drink u jz buy it. U give all the best for me . Now i'm typing here and my tear rolling down and wet my clothes.
christmas day 24/12/2008 , i wont forget it. I love u but people think like i'm fool. How a stupid gal couple with a indian guy? i thought tat i got told u before i love ur coz not ur skin and not ur money. i jz hope my lover can gv me the best. since i know we are not suitable to each other, i'm so sad. we not unsuitable and we jz the religion problem.Give each others some times, that ur choice . I'm not complaining and not regret. And after the few days i'm in sad mood. i will forget
it all. coz feeling almost gone, i'm already pull out of love .red card!! not yellow card!!u know stg? last time we always argue, it oso our best memory. now, we are facing a big problem. I told myself, if u really got Alzhiermer disease, i willing to bbe ur partner for another 4 or 5 years. I'm not regret, i jz wan u have ur full life when u go.Do not left anything which hvt done yet. I know we are no more posisble but i jz hope the next generasi u will be my son or daughter.Together with u
not jz a temporary , 1 year 2 month..If u think tat easy to give up, it not jz a easier thing to me. if u say i'm still a little gal , mayb i'm. Mayb u think tat i'm mature, yes i'm. mature in the heart.
outlook is not everythings! remember the things. I know not ur tears rolling down but i jz hope u can think properly b4 i gone. Coz,u are really hard to find.I love u kesavan...there are too much memory for us and i cant leave it like now. Do not cheat urself tat u are already put up ur hand. U cnt cheat me and u cant cheat urself oso.Now, in ur world, i'm the 1 who always keep in touch with u except ur parents. no one know more u than me. Understand? U said tat u dont wan hurt me.
but u doing it now.At least give me a good reason why we break up. religion is not a good reason .. It have many years to go to settle it.i really cant leave u like tis way. Sorry, i love u .
Friday, November 6, 2009
Web promoter
Since form 4, after sprained..i'm no more focus on it.N my opinion now is earning money by webs. i had register an account but i havent strart my business yet. Any company need web promoter? here am i?
independence
My target: ( A1)
Chemistry
Physics
Biology
Mathematics
Pendidikan moral
English
Chinese
Addmath
(B3)
Bahasa Malaysia
Sejarah
I can do it .. start it now..i’m already big gal, do not let parents always worry bout me .
Kesavan, did u think that I’m changing ? Yes ,I’m changing, changing to independence.Learn to earn money by myself. I earn money by myself. I want richier than u..not ur parents money. Dare to compare? Let’s us start the game. I will study hard. SPM decide my life!!i’m not trying to say break up. I juz by do everything by myself.no more spoon feed.
b_girlmandy@hotmail.com
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Starting over..Dont look back on ur life with full of risk.
Retirement never quite escapes our thoughts as our age advances.It’s a side effect of the lives we have carved out for ourselves, one that promotes wealth and risk management above all else, all in name of security.
Step 1:
• Assess your like and dislike.
• People change careers coz dislike their job, boss or companies
• Ur direction.
• What excites you?
• What is ur passion?
• The spending time rediscovering urself.
Step 2:
• Transferable skills.
• Leverage some of ur current skills and experiences to renew career.ex:communicate,leadership,planning.
Step 3:
• Training & education.
• If plan to persue ur passion, chances r u well ready.
• But u mz update ur skills & broaden ur knowledge.
• Take course ensure u like the subject matter.
Step 4:
• Networking
• Ppl in ur network may gv u job leads,advice & information bout company & industry, exoand network.
• Consider colleagues,friends, family.
Step 5:
• Be flexible.
• Flexible bout nearly everythg from ur emplyment status to salary.
• SET +ve GOALS for urself, but expect setbacks..
Monday, August 31, 2009
Me as a teenager..what should i acting over..
Is teenage love puppy love? Is it trial love? Is it true love? It seems that most teenagers are getting involved with members of the opposite sex as a form of entertainment.
There are some views from parents. Some of them say falling in love is a bad thing for teenagers. They are not mature and they may get hurt when love is over. And it will take several months to recover. More serious is that they may have sex when in love. Due to their ages, they don’t have any capability to assume responsibility for it if the girls to be pregnant, especially the girls’ parents complain. Because generally the girls, which are pregnant, will be the victims of the love affair. So some parents may warn their children about ignoring their lifelong true friends for someone who was just passing through.
But I think that these parents just have very short memories and no longer recall the realities of love while they were teenagers.
Teen love is quite real because of their innocent young mind. The purpose of love is pure, not because of money, power or status, or some other things have nothing to do with love. The motive of loving starts from human beings. Love is the fact of life, especially for teenagers. It is the thing that is important and central to human existence. It is not like the lights or some other electrical goods can be turned on and off. It is involuntary and automatic.
The reality is that Puppy love is something that can be remembered to the end of our lives. I've heard many people on TV talk how they will never forget their first love. And lots of people even have happily married still have a small flame that burns for their first true loves. Is there something magically about that? Maybe that's because it taught them how to love.
Love is something that can be extremely confusing and frustrating. I know that as a teenager love was extremely confusing and frustrating to me. The only way to...
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Last breath of my life
Thursday, August 27, 2009
What is life being
1st let me talk bout handphone..help..help..my hp need 1st aid box..coz it had been hurt by many times.. ^@^ I want change a new handphone but it is imposisble to ask dad to buy for me..I know ability of my parents..they had been gv me a comfortable life all over 16 years..without any hardship..oni study..I’m thinking if I didn’t change new hp I’m scare that my handphone will explo..coz there is day by day talking on the hp..the batery not gud to use too long..it containing chemical reaction..^8^Anyways, I “hope” my new handphone will get soon..
2nd I want to improve my langguage..^&^ bahasa Melayu and Bahasa English..CRY! ya, I love science subject .. science is my stongest subject coz I like it..especially biology..i still remember..last time teacher Tan wee ling she had been operation a hamster..I’m wanted to touch the hamster’s heart bcoz..the hamster havent end of its last breath..the heart still beating..so excited if I touched it..but I didn’t do it..too smelly la…God god..how I want to improve bahasa Melayu..? Why the ppl whp doesn’t concentrate when teacher teaching they still can get high mark..why they cheating in the class the teacher still become nothing? Why they so unfair..Where is justice? Where is man’s law? And Where is their own principle?huh?
Help…boring la.. felt a bit dissapointed to A (H1N1) coz it make me and my honey cant go patuo…Alwayz stay in a room with four walls ( green colour’s wall) until my eye oso green green jz one more thing no star on my head if not..haiz..this few days, I look like want argue with mum..coz she oso misunderstand me ..my daddy know me sick so call mum bring me go hospital is not bcoz of daddy scare I transfer the sick to him..and if got any sick doctor ask u ..u must tell him where u sick..there is no secret between me(sick) and doctor..for example,if I’m gastics I told doctor tat I sakit kepala then doctor gv me paracetemol lo..so how my sick to recover? If want to cheat doctor better dun waste the money see doctor..and u can treat my sick recover I think all traing’s doctor need to eat grass lo..coz u are a doctor ma..sumtimes if u help me to operation u need to help me kill all the bacteria if not it will bcum more serious..but u didn’t do it and u still angry me scold me said ppl control u ..and sumtimes I so angry with u ..as u said the word” I born u out I wan to scold u ,beat u ,kill u oso can” mind ur word..coz hell will balas to u when u had died..so I never scare..i open my heart..I’m really respect to u ( my parents) if I’m not a gud daughter ..now I wont stay in the house, mayb I smoking? Mayb now I stay in prison..So, I’m dare to tell u..I’m enough to do everything to u all..I willing to study , I willing to be the star of my school, I willing to do everything better than 2 brothers..but be fair..2 bros can study in collage pls gv me some money to study..
Life is not full of complaint..there is fantastic, hopeful, realistic life…no one can escape from the real..I wan grow up I wan grow up..I wan to hv my own life..I know it will be very hardship..but human is being born to hardship…I dun like study economic , acountance at all…stop calling me study it…if u wan, ur age is not a problem ..u can study …sumtimes, i’m enjoy in the house..with a cup of coffee with jazz song and sit on the soft sofa but my house sofa not soft and so hard.. but it cant happen to me now..my house so noisy la ..especially machine sewing…hate it..noisy..tat y I always stay in room..1st the blanket so soft..when stress I’m jz lay down take rest..2 hours over everything bcum normal..sumtimes, I’m really admire at small baby..i oso wan bcum small baby..see baby can laugh like crazy, they can cry whenever they unhapi or they hungry or want to change pampers..when parents holiday ,they bring baby go beach , go shopping or go swimming pool..play with baby..so why not I bcum a baby?when I saw baby doll I jz need to waste a drop of tear, daddy faster pay the money to custom take the babie doll for me..so what ..i like it..when parents see her or him laugh they oso laugh ..see the baby so adorable..when sleeping so cute..when eating mummy feed..they jz oni laugh laugh laugh untill 12 years old..so admire..tc show..cartoon..(spoon feed children) mean spoon come mouth open, money come hand open..i wan er..
Monday, August 17, 2009
Lack of comunicate
Friday, August 7, 2009
Truth
Friday, July 24, 2009
we are going to end...
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Sweat memories
Sunday, May 24, 2009
I Swear to my love
I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I see the questions in your eyes
I know what's weighing on your mind
You can be sure I know my part
Cause I stand beside you through the years
You'll only cry those happy tears
And though I make mistakes
I'll never break your heart
And I swear by the moon
And the stars in the sky
I'll be thereI swear like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be thereFor better or worse
Till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear
I'll give you every thing
I canI'll build your dreams with these two hand
sWe'll hang some memories on the wall
And when (and when) just the two of us are ther
eYou won't have to ask if I still care
Cause as the time turns the page
My love won't age at all
And I swear (I swear) by the moon
And the stars in the sky I'll be there (I'll be there)
I swear (and I swear) like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there (I'll be there)
For better or worse
Till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear
And I swear (I swear) by the moon
And the stars in the sky I'll be there (I'll be there)
I swear (and I swear) like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there (I'll be there)
For better or worse (better or worse)
Till death do us part I'll love you
With every single beat of my heart
I swear I swear I swear
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Thursday, May 14, 2009
A people who felt alone
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Today I’m so scare and so sad about murder case. I’m keep asking myself why the murder so cruel???sumore the gal who kill by her ex bf,for what?? Life without love, will them end of their life?Please I hate the man who without critical thinking…1st,can u give her the best?Can u catch her heart touch her heart?2nd ,any provent can make sure u are hers??Can u success in ur life and share everything with her??For me,success in his life is the best choice for me coz I want my love wont be DREAMS!!every parents hope their children can get a good family after them..good career,good family background,gv comfortable life for next generation,keep it from now to forever.Today,my daddy and mummy told me,gal u must be careful when u choose ur life partner..they said:”study time dun talk bout love…”after study we wont stop you to chase ur future partner..we just want to see u growth happily..even daddy face about money problem,dad still buy a such thing to me..I think I had been enough..My parents love me so much…My baby support me told me ,u must get 6A if not he’ll scold me but I didn’t care bout my baby scold me coz I know he oso want me success in my life..If my baby didn’t stress me up I think my future will be destroy because no any supporter when I’m needed..Thank you Kesavan dear!because of you I found my hapiness, I found the hapiness of study, I found one more care from you,one more support from you..wherever you stay I hope u wont give up to wait for me…if we really want together 1st we must study hard success together in our life to make sure our parents admit we are 1 pair…can you???as my dad said, you are oni daughter in family dun let people look down at u and family..sometimes I’m so sad cause my family is being look down by my cousin..so when I’m stay in school I’m always told myself, I wont let u look down at me..i would like to show u ,u will see me on newspaper one day…I would like to show u how powerful am i..as my nickname rocket pahang!!!people said us very rich actually that just a shell..rich cannot not buy love,rich cannot buy healthy and rich cannot buy well-being!So what is the meaning of LIFE?Bb, sorry for June we cannot meet..I wish u can forgive me,if my parents knoe we patuo nw sure daddy break up us..From the case , I know how important about study!I promise u and my family members I will study hard as my hope and fears for next 7 years…And bb the shoes I will buy myself la…u just help me to FIND spike shoes for me can ar?? FIND only dun pay for me!a good spike cause I dun want my ankle injure again..so sport shoes and spike shoes every important to me..shoes I will find u juz help the to find afer that u pay 1st, I will give u bek the real price..Dun worry…Please help me..please…
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Happy MOther's Day
Mothers’ Day is all about thanking you…
For starting my day on a healthy note..
For that delicious breakfast of porridge..
For making sure I am punctuak for school…
For that fashion advice that makes me look cool…
For helping me with my homework,especially with BC…
Fpr comforting me whenever start to panic…
For nursing me when I am down & out
For telling me when to speak & when to shut my mouth…
For nagging me to go to bed early..
For always keeping me safe & healthy.
For being my chef, nurse and teacher..
Most of all, for being YOU!!!
I LOVE YOU...
Sorry for i'm scare to face you and said I love you..
Friday, April 17, 2009
Sometimes I’m really scare of you…
Which status am I in ur heart??? If i’m boy, I’ll just leave u like tat!!I always remind myself isn’t he is ur best choice??? All the man no one is better than u ??My friend asked me: “Ah Ca, you both is come from different culture, life, colour of skin even the thought of each other oso not same ,wat fort u wanted be with him?? Why got others better than him u still wan to be with him???” For my informant’s information, she said : “You must think properly..” As I said: “life and death are in ur hand!” No one change ur mind, no one can stole ur heart~ Before tat , you must remind urself to look before u leap!! Now I’m scare about how we spend the time together??? How we couple to each other?? Because the worst things still sticked in my mind!!! I recalls a lot of things about my life !!How was the life start??? How we choose our life??? Isnt money can buy everything??? For me, the ans is no! I would not like the money….Sometimes money can buy someone’s heart…If one day the people bankrupt, what will happen???would u thinking of this kind of problems before???? I can confirm that…the life will end with sadness..Will u agree with ?
Sometimes, we argued for small kind of things but I hope I can remind u that if u treat me bad> worse>worst, I wont be with u !!! Life oso cannot confirm everythings ,if stg really want to happen sure will happen 1 day..We just dunno when will happen~So, I’m seriously tell u , if 1 day I really leave u away…That is my choice~ If u want to brag bek, I’ll tell u tat : “Wait until the coming generation! Love + Hurt = End…Love is very unfair example…I hope u can improve urself…How great man or how good human being oso = 0…Because we must believe tat TIME AND TIDE WAIT FOR NO MAN!!! WAt is the meaning of true love?? Discription the meaning of true love??? 1 thing….how valueable u are oso non-used~ Cause ur heart is black in colour…I believe tat nothing will make me sad after losing u in my life~ Take care.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
i'M YOURS
The day the nite u gone...Dear, i miss u...I wan u hug me...hold my hand kiss me...yer,need to wait another 9 months eh...How to wait o ???Haiz...Bb..Actually i really love u ...BUt i dunno how to describe my heart's feeling..I dunno how to romance u ....Hmm...If talk bout romance..u the one must romance me..u are guy ma...Wat to do???Hehe..I'm the 1 u romance me..no more gals..except ur mummy...MUaks! Sorry dear...I know u are degree student, i know u very bz...But i felt alone ma so i call u lo..talk with u lo...u the 1 who studu study and study ma....So no more time spend to me lo....Bleuks! Bb...holidays almost finish eh...need to start my engine again lo...i think this year wont be tat bz lo...coz sport all stop ady ma...but next year sure bz one la...hmm, like u said..sport cant promise u anythg and study is the 1 who decided ur future ma...So i study smart lo...adjust my timetable accurately lo ...B4 i retired form vb in myteam, i really scare i will alone and felt boring in the house... now, i dont think so!! You want to KNW MORE MY TIMETABLE ????
MON4.30 wake up (study time)School tll 2.30pm3.30pm go library till 5.30pmthen 6.00 till 7.00 ( FREE TIME)9.00pm till 9.30pm (revision)9.30 to 10.00pm (sleep)
TUES4.30 wake up (study time)School till 2.30pm4.00pm to 5.30 (co-curiculum)then 6.00 till 8.00( free time )9.00pm till 9.30pm (revision)9.30 to 10.00pm (sleep)
WEDNES5.30 wake up ( Study time)School till 2.30pm4.00 to 5.30pm (co-curiculum)5.30 to 7.30 (Tuition)8pm (rest)9pm (study)10pm (sleep)
THRUS5.30 wake up( study time)school till 2.304 to 5.30 (co-curiculum)5.30 to 7.30 (tuition)8pm (rest)9pm (study)10pm (sleep)
FRI5.30 wake upschool till 12.30pm2 t0 4 (tuition)6 to 8 (homework)9.00 (arrange book)Free time
SATURFree time (whole day)
SUN11am (study)2.30 till 5.30 (library)6 to 8 (homework )8 to 10 (FREE TIME)10pm sleep
bb, WRITE DOWN UR WHOLE WEEK TIMETABLE TO ME...
Saturday, February 21, 2009
My hopes and fears for the next 7 years
This would mean my parents would have to spend more money to send me to a private collage.But i never hope it will happen around me...I never want to spend my parents's money.i want to be a " spotan "children between my siblings.
my greatest fear in the next decade when i turn to 23-year-old is the fear of not successfully completing my degree. What if i failed miserably? My parents would be dissapointed and I would be devastated. Wht would i do if i were thus unable to support myself? How o??
Related to this is the fear of growing older and alone. I love being a teenager with lots of friends. This is the time when u can enjoy the best tat life has to offer without worrying about working for a living, getting married and becoming parents, nut without good qualifications, i would becondemned to a low-paying job. My high-flying friends would probably shun me, and no one would want to marry me and eventually i'd die alone and unloved. This is what would pain me the most.
But enough of this gloom and doom! I must make sure tat this sad scenario doesn’t occur. My greatest hope is tat I complete my medical degree with distinction. I realize that this calls for a lot of diligence and sacrifice but I am more than ready to meet this challenge.
Also, in the next 7 years, I hope to change for the better. I tend to get impatient and short-tempered which gets me into hot soup with my parents and friends, so that’s definitely one trait I’d like to get rid of.
Just a important is my hope that my parents will remain in good health lolz. They are now in their late fifties and enjoy excellent health except my dad because my dad’s ankle so pain…n his emotionally disturb him… I pray for the god would give my family members have a good health.. Hope SWT Allah give a good career for my 2 brothers…
Last but not least is my hope that my family and I will always be happy. Hapiness is an elusive thing but I hope that we will be content, not only for the next 7 years but also for the rest of our lives…Brags the golden chance to get back my dear… Spend entire life together…Make sure we will be a role model partner and it will be remain alive to our next generation…can u do it?
Friday, February 20, 2009
Whay qualities will you look for in your future husband?
It is therefore important for me to choose my future husband carefully as I want my marriage to be happy and last forever. i realise my own imperfection and know that any romantic notions of marrying Mr Universe are out.
Besides, physical perfection is no guaranteee for ineer beauty and mental strength which are more essential. Of course, I want my husband to be good-looking but he must be gregarious, with a pleasant personality and an ability to mix with everyone easily.
He must be well-educated, at least up to the Collage (Bachelor of Degree).He must also be caring and be able to think independently. I want my husband would make for more exciteing interaction and meaingful relationship.
Nevertheless, there must be some common ground. I love watch movie and i hope my darling can spend out the time with me...Talk with me, jokking around me...
I would like him to be working man. Some old-fashioned Asians might still believe that a guy's place is in the company but not me. A double income will enable us to have a more comfortable lifestyle and we will be able to give our children the best of everything.
Besides, the working world has challenges to offer both men and women, and womansuch as I have described would definitely not want to stay at home, wasting her education. On the contrary,she will thrive at workplace. However, if she herself prefer to stayhome and look after the children.( For me i wont!) I want working...
Apart from this, my future husband must be understanding. I tend to get moody but just once in a while, so i hope he will put up with the times when i need to be alone. i expect him to give me some space, just as I will respect him own moments of quiet.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Hollow Tears
This is the 1st games which make my so hurt...I never get the 3rd prize...beside tat...I got two gang of teacher support me..1st gang support me in sport 2nd gang suport me in study...who support me in study is My entire life partner k-7, En.Hamidi , Assitance principal (En.Chua), Mr.Tham and Pn.Khor.They said :" U will be the doctor in future." Thank you teachers ...i Think i shold oni focus on study ady...if no confident to get champion i wont join...
Saturday, January 3, 2009
KL trips
In the planet called "Earth".It contains a lot of different type of skin's human, racial and fact!! On the other hand, different racial had thier different fact such as Melay n Chinese. Can u find out how many differences between both of them??? Well~ Let me explain to u all..Melay have a session called Hari Raya Puasa. Look so pityful u know, they cant to eat anything after 12am till 7pm...!This is the 1st point. 2nd point,they needed to wear the sarung although it is used for take shower n sleeping.(Hehe, when i go training most of the athelet are malay and Indian so i need to follow them wear the sarung take shower.)Tell u my private things la...sometimes i take shower my sarung will suddenly drop down luckily no ppl look at me at the sence!huhu~3rd cannot eat pig althought they always said ppl as a pig.(that time i cant to control myself ,n luckily Sir Alias faster run away from me if not i think he terpaksa shout as a pig!! Wahaha..Always Babi babi!!!That why i'm hate Malay ppl~
The 2nd day,we wake up not tat early n not tat late~After wake up, take shower n arrange my bag my shirt n everything in the room~Around 10.30am we had our meals in other part or sg.wang. I'm not comfirm where is tat place and sumore i never go there!!! Hmm,compare with Thailand mee and Thailand tomyam..I'm more like Thailand tomyam!I'm finished all the thailand mee who serve for me bcoz of i want to make a prove tat i wont waste the food!!! Hehe~After had our breakfast we forward to sg.wang! I dunno my bb dun like sg.wang so i followed bb go Times square lo..I like sg.wang bcoz of more choice and more cheaper than times square!!! And the quality of the shirt is not worse than times square...I admit there really very busy and got a lot of ppl look at us! Sorry ...
Fine, we walk to the times square...Hmm,times square is bigger than sg.wang lo but the price oso "BIGGER" than sg.wang lo...Hehe! I'm so sorry to waste bb money coz...he spent a lot of money to me ady...I dunno how to retaliate to him...seriously!!Sumore both of us just a student (degree student and secondarly student). Can u imagine how we spent the money? Jz a breakfast we spend more than 50 ringgit ..Adui!Hmm, we looking around there n found some new year clothes...Bb bring me to a high class brand's shop .It called Esprit...Wow,oni a skirt the price is RM 199 after discount is RM143..if my parents know me bought a skirt spent about 50 ringgit sure my mum scold me de...So better than i keep my mouth shut lo...I'm so thankful 4 bb..Tell u the truth,i'm a gal who dont like to spend guys money!! Coz,i want spend the money which i earm by myself not husband or wat...This is the 1st time ,i hope it wont happen again lolz...
Wow, actually i'm still hv a lot of story in KL trip but i'm thinking thinking and thinking..It is the time go to sleep ady...gud night bb...Have a nice dream..!