The Day Without Mood

Today is the 3rd days of Hari Deepavali...My bb told me that he was very unhappy = NO MOOD.So, i sent him a message: "I chat with u at 12am."Izzit u wan to know the time between 10.30 and 12am how i spend it...Allright, suddenly i check my cupboard and feedback who sent me letter ,wishes card,birthday card, presents and others.I just pick up the birthday card and check..I found tat...a birthday card from my ex-boy friend(Toax).Although the format of the card not nice but when i face to the page 2 of the card..the card was releasing a birthday song with a red shine light.The 3rd page of the card write on :
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you, (*sing together with me)
Happy Birthday to Jessica,
Happy Birthday to you.
Below the song:
(A big birthday cake)

Continously, I found a present beside me...It was a big bottle wishes.It contains 20 bottles of wishes:(the 20 reasons i love u)

1st:I want to hold ur hand and see the sunset together...
2nd: Because of i want to share my hardness...
3rd: Because of i want to know u all...
4th: because of my ordinary so i love ur normal...
5th: Because of u i find all the hapiness...
6th: Because of i want send u return home when the night was late...
7th: Because of you will share all my jokking ..
8th: Because i hope when i wake up in the morning u are my 1st think of u...
9th: Because of i want listen ur voice everyday...
10th: Because of the love story want we both to be the leading character...
11th: Because of ur big shine eyes...
12th: Because of god want we both to be the lover...
13th: Because of ur kindness...
14th: Because of i believe in u will becum a good daughter-in-law.
15th: Because of oni u know me in the world...
16th: Because of last lifetime i owe u...
17th: Because of u make my heart beatinf faster than normal...
18th: Because of u are my most care darling...
19th: Because of u i full of hopefulness...
20th: Because of u will forgive me when i had done wrongly...

Chat with ghost~

Today is new year of Indian called Hari Deepavali.Wa...a bit happy a bit boring a bit sleepy a bit tired and a bit crazy...How come???I wake up 3 times in midnight...(2am~4am and 7.52am)Maybe,i'm too worried bout something..That is(GHOST).Wah, so scared ler...Then what can i do??I use my traditional method..That is used my blanket cover all part of my body include my HEAD!! I scared the ghost looked in front of me..A pale face , a single eye, a bleeding mouth and eye...And figures ghosts i more scare...HUHU~Mau pergi kencing pun tak berani..u know????Between me ,jingwen and Siny..I'm the most scared bout ghost...Anyways,i'm the youngest between them ma...
Eeee, i dunno what can i say wor...Next posts la....Kaka...Although bb beside i oso scare la not because of i didnt belived u .. because of later u jadi ghost how???I cant to escape..Something want to happen u cant to control ma..Rite..???My bb so cute la...Adui~~BB, i so boring today la..I'm sure later i oso cant to sleep la..So scare ler...

A night sky

Someone said:"If u hv a bad day, please look upward to the sky."Today, i think twice..want or dun wan , continue or stop?..I'm really confused.A night sky give me non-respond.. jus hv a litlle twinkle star..twinkle twinkle! Suddenly,my mind thinking about a nice song who listen it since young(baby stage)..

Twinkle, Twinkle, little star,
How i wonder what u are,
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky,
Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How i wonder what you are.

Suddenly, my phone received a message:"All player who sitting in un20 tournament ,tomorrow will start training."I think and confused~i look moody when i'm think all the problem what had happened between the team cause not things make me hapi before jus one thing "know to each other from other state of player.." Allright, for me..maybe is a valueable changes..a memory what i perform in a great tournament..hapi..sad..pain and others!!!Stop thinking bout this...i think i should stop ady..wat i wan to stop?( Volleyball)
After an hour and 30 mins, my friend ask me ..Jessica i wan find a job, we work together , can ar? I said:" in KL?''..she said:'' NO, in Triang."So hapi, finally got people accompany me ady...then,i thought back, jus now sir noticed us must start training tomorrow...So, i jus picked up my phone and send a message to my sir..U want to know what i had sent? Rite, a message will make my team dissapointed.."Sir, can i reject the tournament?"after a minute..Sir said:"whatever la." I thought, this is the time to let me cool down and relax my mind....maybe will continue next year or will stop next year..I'm over training ady!!I'm not BJ player...I cant to forward training everyday b'cause of we still a full time student!!Compare with BJ student~BJ player jus study 4-5 hours...another time use for training! for me??Sorry...I cant!!!I got a lot of thing to do...In school, i'm not a vb player ..i oso an althelte.Compare with sir and sir~ Who more sayang me??Anyways, i think athetle sir more care of me...he gv me a chance to memohon sport schoclarship..A year RM500 other extra..per month RM 150...How cum???Izzit i must more focus track perform???Yes, i do...But i hvt start my training programme yet!!!will star next year or after next year...Who treat me as good as he/she daughter/son???Yes, athelete sir...who respect me?Yes, athelete sir???Who make me famous???Yes, athelete sir...Nowadys,all my teachers in my school know who is JESSICA!!(feel glad)..Because of who??Yes, athelet sir???All the exp..find out who more care of me???Who i need to respect...Yes,Athelte sir(Mr.ABu)..Although, Abu's daughter is my enemy who fight the metal gold with me...This year,Abu knows me as he "anak buah"...so bahagia, u know???
My mind..thinking thinking and thinking!!Izzit the time prepare for SPM? Izzit the time create a good new way for future???Yes!!!This is the time.... 3E is preaparing to who want to be a good businessman...that is...
Efisien>>>to do something more accurately...
Education>>>good knowledge...
Enconomy>>>If someone no money but he had a good education it make troublesome to everyone who wan start their business or company...
SO, 3E is very important for future!!!That why i wan to earn money and save money now.A secondarly school life nearly finish....Although, my parents can support me to continue my school life, if i cant get a good result?How???Izzit make my parents dissapointed???My parents wan to pay for electrical loan, car loan(3 cars),shop loan(2 shops) and collage fee(for my brther)..Then, if i can help by myself sure i wont call dad n mum pay for me...although the money is no to more to support my future...Anyways la..lama-lama jadi bukit lo..So..that is my plan...Plan for future..
after that..the time is 11.03pm ady.. i go n take shower then wait for my bb calling me ...lo...haha...Learn to enjoy and relax my mind..when spend together with my bb..

Life

Hmm,see life is moving on.Something hapiness change ady change to sadness!!!Why??Isnt our own problem ,think negetively or your stingy???For me, I want peaceful coexistence, friendly agreeable.Grandparents always said "Good-naturedness leads to propitiousness".BUt i taught..Am i sitting in a family like this?Have them give me a peaceful, hapiness ,harmony family?I'm very confused!!!I think that i have a family who give me to stay and survive oni...That why i dun like stay at home...that why i want joined many activities about sport.Sometimes i want to shout at them but i'm not dare!!I want to dissolve but i dunno how to make them tardy in the saliva's war!!!My parents very excessive, how come i can stop them...If i stopped them i', make sure i die 1st lo...One thing i can do it >>>"Eyes brimming with tears".Start from MOnday until today,my eyelids still twitches u know?? I dunno wat will happen or something will suddenly happen in my life..I think it is a more series case for me..I eyelids never twitches like this...Yesterday,Dad's friend return from Kelantan...then dad go out with them without ask my mum when(after dinner)..then my mum so so so stingy then she ask me stayed at home and she wanted go out fought my dad..On purpose to avoid my parent fight up, i quickly called my dad and asked him wat had happened..After 5 mins, my dad return home..then he sat on the sofa said nothing just waited my mum came back.Nearly 13 mins,my mum came back,my mum said nothing then she suddenly asked me:"Isnt u called ur dad came back?"I said no!!! Not i wanted to cheat each other because i want peace...The second day(today),my mum said her hand so so so pain..then she asked me to accompany hers to go to see an acupuncturist.I said wait for me .. i want take a shower 1st..then when i was bathing my mum phone my dad, she said:"I want go to MEntakab see an acupuncturist and get an acupuncture treatment".after that my mum called me help hers to cheat my dad about went to Mentakab.then i said yes..Actually i dun wan to help my mum because not my dad's wrong..I know my mum jealous...My mum hate my dad's friend...I know my mum stingy...I know my mum very hard to convince . In one's turn, my mum told me ,when ur dad asked u then u help me to cheat ur dad and said the acupuncturist not at Mentakab so we returned traing...I said:" I dunno u all, i just study in library,i dunno wat had happened"..NOw,my parents still "senyap sangat"..wat can i do???Are them disturb me to study???Truthly, they really disturb me to study!!!I no mood ady...So sad...SOB SOB SOB!!!!!