Stop asking me why why why???? Seriously I’m really don’t know why. I would like to tell u that I like freedom…I don’t like people control me too much…Wat I want to do just let me go! If u feel fed up I will not keep asking u too much question~ Did u know
Which status am I in ur heart??? If i’m boy, I’ll just leave u like tat!!I always remind myself isn’t he is ur best choice??? All the man no one is better than u ??My friend asked me: “Ah Ca, you both is come from different culture, life, colour of skin even the thought of each other oso not same ,wat fort u wanted be with him?? Why got others better than him u still wan to be with him???” For my informant’s information, she said : “You must think properly..” As I said: “life and death are in ur hand!” No one change ur mind, no one can stole ur heart~ Before tat , you must remind urself to look before u leap!! Now I’m scare about how we spend the time together??? How we couple to each other?? Because the worst things still sticked in my mind!!! I recalls a lot of things about my life !!How was the life start??? How we choose our life??? Isnt money can buy everything??? For me, the ans is no! I would not like the money….Sometimes money can buy someone’s heart…If one day the people bankrupt, what will happen???would u thinking of this kind of problems before???? I can confirm that…the life will end with sadness..Will u agree with ?
Sometimes, we argued for small kind of things but I hope I can remind u that if u treat me bad> worse>worst, I wont be with u !!! Life oso cannot confirm everythings ,if stg really want to happen sure will happen 1 day..We just dunno when will happen~So, I’m seriously tell u , if 1 day I really leave u away…That is my choice~ If u want to brag bek, I’ll tell u tat : “Wait until the coming generation! Love + Hurt = End…Love is very unfair example…I hope u can improve urself…How great man or how good human being oso = 0…Because we must believe tat TIME AND TIDE WAIT FOR NO MAN!!! WAt is the meaning of true love?? Discription the meaning of true love??? 1 thing….how valueable u are oso non-used~ Cause ur heart is black in colour…I believe tat nothing will make me sad after losing u in my life~ Take care.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
i'M YOURS
The day the nite u gone...Dear, i miss u...I wan u hug me...hold my hand kiss me...yer,need to wait another 9 months eh...How to wait o ???Haiz...Bb..Actually i really love u ...BUt i dunno how to describe my heart's feeling..I dunno how to romance u ....Hmm...If talk bout romance..u the one must romance me..u are guy ma...Wat to do???Hehe..I'm the 1 u romance me..no more gals..except ur mummy...MUaks! Sorry dear...I know u are degree student, i know u very bz...But i felt alone ma so i call u lo..talk with u lo...u the 1 who studu study and study ma....So no more time spend to me lo....Bleuks! Bb...holidays almost finish eh...need to start my engine again lo...i think this year wont be tat bz lo...coz sport all stop ady ma...but next year sure bz one la...hmm, like u said..sport cant promise u anythg and study is the 1 who decided ur future ma...So i study smart lo...adjust my timetable accurately lo ...B4 i retired form vb in myteam, i really scare i will alone and felt boring in the house... now, i dont think so!! You want to KNW MORE MY TIMETABLE ????
MON4.30 wake up (study time)School tll 2.30pm3.30pm go library till 5.30pmthen 6.00 till 7.00 ( FREE TIME)9.00pm till 9.30pm (revision)9.30 to 10.00pm (sleep)
TUES4.30 wake up (study time)School till 2.30pm4.00pm to 5.30 (co-curiculum)then 6.00 till 8.00( free time )9.00pm till 9.30pm (revision)9.30 to 10.00pm (sleep)
WEDNES5.30 wake up ( Study time)School till 2.30pm4.00 to 5.30pm (co-curiculum)5.30 to 7.30 (Tuition)8pm (rest)9pm (study)10pm (sleep)
THRUS5.30 wake up( study time)school till 2.304 to 5.30 (co-curiculum)5.30 to 7.30 (tuition)8pm (rest)9pm (study)10pm (sleep)
FRI5.30 wake upschool till 12.30pm2 t0 4 (tuition)6 to 8 (homework)9.00 (arrange book)Free time
SATURFree time (whole day)
SUN11am (study)2.30 till 5.30 (library)6 to 8 (homework )8 to 10 (FREE TIME)10pm sleep
bb, WRITE DOWN UR WHOLE WEEK TIMETABLE TO ME...
Saturday, February 21, 2009
My hopes and fears for the next 7 years
Being rather pessimistic, I would like to start off with my fears. I guess my most immediate fear is the approaching SPM examination. Though I have always been conscientious and am often among top 3 student in my class. i hope the lucky star always behind me give me a last push for SPM examination...even through i know my dream wont be tat accurately...But i hope i can enter matriculation.
This would mean my parents would have to spend more money to send me to a private collage.But i never hope it will happen around me...I never want to spend my parents's money.i want to be a " spotan "children between my siblings.
my greatest fear in the next decade when i turn to 23-year-old is the fear of not successfully completing my degree. What if i failed miserably? My parents would be dissapointed and I would be devastated. Wht would i do if i were thus unable to support myself? How o??
Related to this is the fear of growing older and alone. I love being a teenager with lots of friends. This is the time when u can enjoy the best tat life has to offer without worrying about working for a living, getting married and becoming parents, nut without good qualifications, i would becondemned to a low-paying job. My high-flying friends would probably shun me, and no one would want to marry me and eventually i'd die alone and unloved. This is what would pain me the most.
But enough of this gloom and doom! I must make sure tat this sad scenario doesn’t occur. My greatest hope is tat I complete my medical degree with distinction. I realize that this calls for a lot of diligence and sacrifice but I am more than ready to meet this challenge.
Also, in the next 7 years, I hope to change for the better. I tend to get impatient and short-tempered which gets me into hot soup with my parents and friends, so that’s definitely one trait I’d like to get rid of.
Just a important is my hope that my parents will remain in good health lolz. They are now in their late fifties and enjoy excellent health except my dad because my dad’s ankle so pain…n his emotionally disturb him… I pray for the god would give my family members have a good health.. Hope SWT Allah give a good career for my 2 brothers…
Last but not least is my hope that my family and I will always be happy. Hapiness is an elusive thing but I hope that we will be content, not only for the next 7 years but also for the rest of our lives…Brags the golden chance to get back my dear… Spend entire life together…Make sure we will be a role model partner and it will be remain alive to our next generation…can u do it?
This would mean my parents would have to spend more money to send me to a private collage.But i never hope it will happen around me...I never want to spend my parents's money.i want to be a " spotan "children between my siblings.
my greatest fear in the next decade when i turn to 23-year-old is the fear of not successfully completing my degree. What if i failed miserably? My parents would be dissapointed and I would be devastated. Wht would i do if i were thus unable to support myself? How o??
Related to this is the fear of growing older and alone. I love being a teenager with lots of friends. This is the time when u can enjoy the best tat life has to offer without worrying about working for a living, getting married and becoming parents, nut without good qualifications, i would becondemned to a low-paying job. My high-flying friends would probably shun me, and no one would want to marry me and eventually i'd die alone and unloved. This is what would pain me the most.
But enough of this gloom and doom! I must make sure tat this sad scenario doesn’t occur. My greatest hope is tat I complete my medical degree with distinction. I realize that this calls for a lot of diligence and sacrifice but I am more than ready to meet this challenge.
Also, in the next 7 years, I hope to change for the better. I tend to get impatient and short-tempered which gets me into hot soup with my parents and friends, so that’s definitely one trait I’d like to get rid of.
Just a important is my hope that my parents will remain in good health lolz. They are now in their late fifties and enjoy excellent health except my dad because my dad’s ankle so pain…n his emotionally disturb him… I pray for the god would give my family members have a good health.. Hope SWT Allah give a good career for my 2 brothers…
Last but not least is my hope that my family and I will always be happy. Hapiness is an elusive thing but I hope that we will be content, not only for the next 7 years but also for the rest of our lives…Brags the golden chance to get back my dear… Spend entire life together…Make sure we will be a role model partner and it will be remain alive to our next generation…can u do it?
Friday, February 20, 2009
Whay qualities will you look for in your future husband?
I am still schooling but pretty soon I will be earning a living and thinking of getting married. Most people marry for love but all too often, marriages break up because they have chosen unsuitable partnes.
It is therefore important for me to choose my future husband carefully as I want my marriage to be happy and last forever. i realise my own imperfection and know that any romantic notions of marrying Mr Universe are out.
Besides, physical perfection is no guaranteee for ineer beauty and mental strength which are more essential. Of course, I want my husband to be good-looking but he must be gregarious, with a pleasant personality and an ability to mix with everyone easily.
He must be well-educated, at least up to the Collage (Bachelor of Degree).He must also be caring and be able to think independently. I want my husband would make for more exciteing interaction and meaingful relationship.
Nevertheless, there must be some common ground. I love watch movie and i hope my darling can spend out the time with me...Talk with me, jokking around me...
I would like him to be working man. Some old-fashioned Asians might still believe that a guy's place is in the company but not me. A double income will enable us to have a more comfortable lifestyle and we will be able to give our children the best of everything.
Besides, the working world has challenges to offer both men and women, and womansuch as I have described would definitely not want to stay at home, wasting her education. On the contrary,she will thrive at workplace. However, if she herself prefer to stayhome and look after the children.( For me i wont!) I want working...
Apart from this, my future husband must be understanding. I tend to get moody but just once in a while, so i hope he will put up with the times when i need to be alone. i expect him to give me some space, just as I will respect him own moments of quiet.
It is therefore important for me to choose my future husband carefully as I want my marriage to be happy and last forever. i realise my own imperfection and know that any romantic notions of marrying Mr Universe are out.
Besides, physical perfection is no guaranteee for ineer beauty and mental strength which are more essential. Of course, I want my husband to be good-looking but he must be gregarious, with a pleasant personality and an ability to mix with everyone easily.
He must be well-educated, at least up to the Collage (Bachelor of Degree).He must also be caring and be able to think independently. I want my husband would make for more exciteing interaction and meaingful relationship.
Nevertheless, there must be some common ground. I love watch movie and i hope my darling can spend out the time with me...Talk with me, jokking around me...
I would like him to be working man. Some old-fashioned Asians might still believe that a guy's place is in the company but not me. A double income will enable us to have a more comfortable lifestyle and we will be able to give our children the best of everything.
Besides, the working world has challenges to offer both men and women, and womansuch as I have described would definitely not want to stay at home, wasting her education. On the contrary,she will thrive at workplace. However, if she herself prefer to stayhome and look after the children.( For me i wont!) I want working...
Apart from this, my future husband must be understanding. I tend to get moody but just once in a while, so i hope he will put up with the times when i need to be alone. i expect him to give me some space, just as I will respect him own moments of quiet.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Hollow Tears
4-5 FEB 2009, 2 days of Badminton tournament.1st day of tournament had been win all the games.2nd day of the tournament...i lost the semi games...Single i can win the metal gold but i renounce it...Before i start the semi game i told myself she jus as Lin Dan and me jz a Lee Chong Wei.Coz Lin Dan taller than Lee Chong Wei...But no use...Lee Chong Wei still win the games be a top player in whole country...World ranking 1!!!!ok,fine when i started to play the games i win (21-16) 2nd match (18-21) 3rd match (12-21)...I know i can play but i really lazy...After games, Kerayong's principal asked me: " Jessica, how is ur games?" i said:" I lost." Then he said:" Why you dun want to win? I know u can win why u surrender? A face look like dissapointed.." I oso felt sad...Cotinuously, Cikgu Azman asked me:" Jessica, kenapa u kalah? Kenapa u tak mau main dengan intentif? U tak nak pergi Pekan ke???" I juz keep quite there..Continuosly, Chew Sun said:" Jessica, if u dun wan to win the games next time better dun wan to join..." I agree wat Chew Sun said..MY HERAT AS DROP INTO THE DARK HOLE...After that Cikgu Lim( Guru teknik for SMK Triang),he jz said nothing but his eyes non-stop and asked me :" Why Why Why???"I really dunno how to face my teachers all...when i returned school after tournament...The guys of my class and 4 S class said:" Oiyoo,national champion come bek ady.." They didnt asked stg bout my tournament coz in their impression i'm win tha champion jz a normal thg...so they look at me like very hapi...Actually my heart really bleeding...so hurt. Tomorrow (Monday) i dunno how to face all the teacher especially Pn. Khor( Perak's coach),Abu Samah, Iruan (SU kk) and my biology teacher...And i dunno how to face all of my friends who are olahraga ,volleyball, badminton player and all my lovely friends...I know they will keep asking why...
This is the 1st games which make my so hurt...I never get the 3rd prize...beside tat...I got two gang of teacher support me..1st gang support me in sport 2nd gang suport me in study...who support me in study is My entire life partner k-7, En.Hamidi , Assitance principal (En.Chua), Mr.Tham and Pn.Khor.They said :" U will be the doctor in future." Thank you teachers ...i Think i shold oni focus on study ady...if no confident to get champion i wont join...
This is the 1st games which make my so hurt...I never get the 3rd prize...beside tat...I got two gang of teacher support me..1st gang support me in sport 2nd gang suport me in study...who support me in study is My entire life partner k-7, En.Hamidi , Assitance principal (En.Chua), Mr.Tham and Pn.Khor.They said :" U will be the doctor in future." Thank you teachers ...i Think i shold oni focus on study ady...if no confident to get champion i wont join...
Saturday, January 3, 2009
KL trips
A 4 days 3 nights trip make me to remember as long as one lives. Time as fast a rocket (my own word)..The 1st day i reached KL was around 11something..wow!So hungry...after that k-7 and me take tren to KL Sentral had a lunch. It was a great chicken rice shop in KL sentral..I'm thinking customers of chicken rice shop almost full!! Need to queue up and paid money...look so busy wor~Fine, It is the time to return from the digression...After Having our meals,my bb brought me into a Famous chocolates shop.So nice and well-being o! Bcoz,most of the boy friend wont bring their gal friend go n buy chocolates bcoz it will make thier dearest lover "pop kai". But my bb wont do tat, he knew me very well..he knew me not the greedy gal who spend the money without eyes!!Right???
In the planet called "Earth".It contains a lot of different type of skin's human, racial and fact!! On the other hand, different racial had thier different fact such as Melay n Chinese. Can u find out how many differences between both of them??? Well~ Let me explain to u all..Melay have a session called Hari Raya Puasa. Look so pityful u know, they cant to eat anything after 12am till 7pm...!This is the 1st point. 2nd point,they needed to wear the sarung although it is used for take shower n sleeping.(Hehe, when i go training most of the athelet are malay and Indian so i need to follow them wear the sarung take shower.)Tell u my private things la...sometimes i take shower my sarung will suddenly drop down luckily no ppl look at me at the sence!huhu~3rd cannot eat pig althought they always said ppl as a pig.(that time i cant to control myself ,n luckily Sir Alias faster run away from me if not i think he terpaksa shout as a pig!! Wahaha..Always Babi babi!!!That why i'm hate Malay ppl~
The 2nd day,we wake up not tat early n not tat late~After wake up, take shower n arrange my bag my shirt n everything in the room~Around 10.30am we had our meals in other part or sg.wang. I'm not comfirm where is tat place and sumore i never go there!!! Hmm,compare with Thailand mee and Thailand tomyam..I'm more like Thailand tomyam!I'm finished all the thailand mee who serve for me bcoz of i want to make a prove tat i wont waste the food!!! Hehe~After had our breakfast we forward to sg.wang! I dunno my bb dun like sg.wang so i followed bb go Times square lo..I like sg.wang bcoz of more choice and more cheaper than times square!!! And the quality of the shirt is not worse than times square...I admit there really very busy and got a lot of ppl look at us! Sorry ...
Fine, we walk to the times square...Hmm,times square is bigger than sg.wang lo but the price oso "BIGGER" than sg.wang lo...Hehe! I'm so sorry to waste bb money coz...he spent a lot of money to me ady...I dunno how to retaliate to him...seriously!!Sumore both of us just a student (degree student and secondarly student). Can u imagine how we spent the money? Jz a breakfast we spend more than 50 ringgit ..Adui!Hmm, we looking around there n found some new year clothes...Bb bring me to a high class brand's shop .It called Esprit...Wow,oni a skirt the price is RM 199 after discount is RM143..if my parents know me bought a skirt spent about 50 ringgit sure my mum scold me de...So better than i keep my mouth shut lo...I'm so thankful 4 bb..Tell u the truth,i'm a gal who dont like to spend guys money!! Coz,i want spend the money which i earm by myself not husband or wat...This is the 1st time ,i hope it wont happen again lolz...
Wow, actually i'm still hv a lot of story in KL trip but i'm thinking thinking and thinking..It is the time go to sleep ady...gud night bb...Have a nice dream..!
In the planet called "Earth".It contains a lot of different type of skin's human, racial and fact!! On the other hand, different racial had thier different fact such as Melay n Chinese. Can u find out how many differences between both of them??? Well~ Let me explain to u all..Melay have a session called Hari Raya Puasa. Look so pityful u know, they cant to eat anything after 12am till 7pm...!This is the 1st point. 2nd point,they needed to wear the sarung although it is used for take shower n sleeping.(Hehe, when i go training most of the athelet are malay and Indian so i need to follow them wear the sarung take shower.)Tell u my private things la...sometimes i take shower my sarung will suddenly drop down luckily no ppl look at me at the sence!huhu~3rd cannot eat pig althought they always said ppl as a pig.(that time i cant to control myself ,n luckily Sir Alias faster run away from me if not i think he terpaksa shout as a pig!! Wahaha..Always Babi babi!!!That why i'm hate Malay ppl~
The 2nd day,we wake up not tat early n not tat late~After wake up, take shower n arrange my bag my shirt n everything in the room~Around 10.30am we had our meals in other part or sg.wang. I'm not comfirm where is tat place and sumore i never go there!!! Hmm,compare with Thailand mee and Thailand tomyam..I'm more like Thailand tomyam!I'm finished all the thailand mee who serve for me bcoz of i want to make a prove tat i wont waste the food!!! Hehe~After had our breakfast we forward to sg.wang! I dunno my bb dun like sg.wang so i followed bb go Times square lo..I like sg.wang bcoz of more choice and more cheaper than times square!!! And the quality of the shirt is not worse than times square...I admit there really very busy and got a lot of ppl look at us! Sorry ...
Fine, we walk to the times square...Hmm,times square is bigger than sg.wang lo but the price oso "BIGGER" than sg.wang lo...Hehe! I'm so sorry to waste bb money coz...he spent a lot of money to me ady...I dunno how to retaliate to him...seriously!!Sumore both of us just a student (degree student and secondarly student). Can u imagine how we spent the money? Jz a breakfast we spend more than 50 ringgit ..Adui!Hmm, we looking around there n found some new year clothes...Bb bring me to a high class brand's shop .It called Esprit...Wow,oni a skirt the price is RM 199 after discount is RM143..if my parents know me bought a skirt spent about 50 ringgit sure my mum scold me de...So better than i keep my mouth shut lo...I'm so thankful 4 bb..Tell u the truth,i'm a gal who dont like to spend guys money!! Coz,i want spend the money which i earm by myself not husband or wat...This is the 1st time ,i hope it wont happen again lolz...
Wow, actually i'm still hv a lot of story in KL trip but i'm thinking thinking and thinking..It is the time go to sleep ady...gud night bb...Have a nice dream..!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
You Never Get It
What i want and what i dont want? What is the Different between love and like? wat is the action of boy friend?? Who knows?? Who know???
I want u always be with me..I'm thinking friend is more important than gal friend..If it always happen, i'm think be a normal better than everything better than become boy and gal friend!Guy always said:"You are most important in my life.Without you i will die~and You're important than everything."huhu...I know u very rich! I love u not because your money.I love u because i want stay with u...Give me hapiness..Spend the time...Wat new year gift..wat christmas gift?? wat birthday gift???Ok..On the other side, if i'm ur bf...I can buy everythings for u but i always spend the time with friend..Izzit it called sayang???I'm not the 3 years old kid...i know u sayang me...I oso know friend very important too..but sayang is an action cannot combine with present something..It is different things!!!!!Wat suprise?wat Secret???Make sure u make me happy always..Tat is the great present!!!When i start couple with u, i always sad...U always spend the time with ur friendz..Go Qiant..Cyber cafe...Mcd..KFC..Cinema...!!And the most i hate is dont check my called list!!! I dont like...That is my freedom...I jus be with friend with my ex...no others! I'm ur gal friend...Oni yours..No others! You done everything for me because of u scare me run away from u..hm....continue the story by urself!!!!!Haiz...
I want u always be with me..I'm thinking friend is more important than gal friend..If it always happen, i'm think be a normal better than everything better than become boy and gal friend!Guy always said:"You are most important in my life.Without you i will die~and You're important than everything."huhu...I know u very rich! I love u not because your money.I love u because i want stay with u...Give me hapiness..Spend the time...Wat new year gift..wat christmas gift?? wat birthday gift???Ok..On the other side, if i'm ur bf...I can buy everythings for u but i always spend the time with friend..Izzit it called sayang???I'm not the 3 years old kid...i know u sayang me...I oso know friend very important too..but sayang is an action cannot combine with present something..It is different things!!!!!Wat suprise?wat Secret???Make sure u make me happy always..Tat is the great present!!!When i start couple with u, i always sad...U always spend the time with ur friendz..Go Qiant..Cyber cafe...Mcd..KFC..Cinema...!!And the most i hate is dont check my called list!!! I dont like...That is my freedom...I jus be with friend with my ex...no others! I'm ur gal friend...Oni yours..No others! You done everything for me because of u scare me run away from u..hm....continue the story by urself!!!!!Haiz...
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